tirrreeed of life (:

yeah, as emo as it sounds.

Well, Im not like goin to kill myself or anything (never that EMO) but Im like very disappointed at life. I always am, but now im likey very very much, lols.. and idk, sometimes I feel like such an ungrateful person, and I am, but I just dont see a point for all these, though ill still do it til the end of my times.

So I was like very bored yesterday, and really didnt wanted to do anything that involved much effort cause I was like with a lack of 23219387912 hours of sleep, so I started... editing pictures! of myself. What an mmm... I forgot the word, but I wanted to say sth like 'egocentric' :D, and that I am.

So I came up with this. Its a pic of me in the summer... where I was relaxed and happy, I guess. And it was like: ohh summer :P, chanana ...but I dont really miss it that much, just all the free time I had then, but apart from it, I wasnt so much different from what it is now. Oh, well, yeah, there was a difference... there, in those holidays, I just got time to think bout anything without the influence of other things.. and that was priceless. And it makes me feel like sometimes Id like to fly away (ho, I just remembered 'fly away from here' from aerosmith :O) to a place where nothing, BUT NOTHING, can bothers me and do all the things I always have to do. Like a place that would absorb any lil annoying thing inside my brain, and would take out all the stupid feelings and things that make me think bout things I should stop thinkin once for all (wow, that was hard to read x.x). Coz its not wrong the place where I am physically... its the mental place which is wrong.

I was thinkin yesterday also, that I had to find things to do (not like I have nothing to do, I mean school gives me a lot of things to keep my mind focused on just one thing...) to brighten up my life. I dont wanna be tired of it, or feel like its pointless all the time.

So I was thinking bout things to do while watching Charlie's vids in youtube, when I came with the idea of... 'why dont I make video blogs too? :DD!?' ..but its not that easy, I think. Though I find it a quite interesting and releasing idea.

This will be an idea that I will evenatually develop or not. But sth Ill do with my camera and youtube, thats for sure. Maybe not a video blog but sth o0. I feel it, haha.

Well, so continuing with my egocentric pic edition... I also came up withhhh.... this!

hahaha. what is this? another pic of me, of course!!!! super duper interesting ¬¬. But this one is a kinda crazy pic. with my hair dirty and not combed at all, and me smiling like and idiot... its nice (: ..this is how life should be... dirty (:O), not planned at all, and a bit idiot :D (just a bit) ..and I just made an analogy (or whatever) with my pic and life.

Well, I have to study physics and I wont get a thing.

Aff :/ I just want to make my day today. I really dont have a feeling bout nothing today... or I have a feeling of nothing, which is pretty much the same thing.

well....Goodbye guys!!! x) have a nice weekend, and remember to make your days everyday, coz u never know when ull be gone and shit (: love youuu :** and thanks for reading this useless post :DD

...Pau